I left my baby girl!

Daniel and I just spent 5 days in Texas without Morgan! Can you believe it?! I started freaking out a couple of weekends before we left. I literally cried off and on all weekend and worried about if I could actually go through with leaving her. I even called the airlines and tried to cut my trip in half only to learn that would cost an additional $700. We traveled to Texas because Daniel was the Best Man in Brian and Brianne’s wedding. We left her with Aunt Dusty and of course she took great care of her. I was never worried about that. I was worried about the fact that she wouldn’t understand why Dad and Mom left her and that we were coming back. It eased me to know that Morgan loves her aunt and that she’s a pretty easy-going baby who adapts easily to new situations. She’s never had to be on a strict schedule and is like her father in that she can just go with the flow. Daniel and I had a great time but yes, I cried pretty much every day. I would get this overwhelming sick feeling because I just yearned to hold and squeeze her. Being a mother and experiencing the bond with my child never ceases to surprise me and open me up to a whole new world.

People were shocked that we left her for so long. The reason I went ahead and did it is because I make Morgan my entire world and will continue to do so until she no longer lets me but I know that the relationship between Daniel and I is just as important. I know that I shouldn’t completely lose my identity as Angela.

We got to sleep in, have some alone time and I even hung out in South Padre Island alone for one of the nights. I drove to the Island late Friday night, checked into my hotel and then woke up the next morning and hung out at the beach for a few hours. I lounged in the sun, listened to my IPod and watched waves crash on the beach. Their wedding was beautiful and it was fun getting to hang out and get to know everybody. I was happy that Daniel got to be there for Brian and I was happy to accompany him as his wife. I enjoyed meeting and spending time with friends who he grew up with. Morgan did great but I can easily say that I won’t be leaving her again anytime soon.

From left to right: Jesse, Brian, Abe and Daniel. These guys grew up together. It was fun getting to hang out with them.

The below picture is Daniel and I at the wedding. Brian and Brianne got married at Brian's parent's house on the Arroyo. The Arroyo is a shipping channel to the Gulf of Mexico.

Eating at Whataburger after a long night of having fun!